Pregnancy is not a disease

Assalam,

Arini, nak merepek sket. This week is 32 weeks for me n twins. Se'eh nk bergerak, tido sakit badan and macam2 rungutan boleh sy ckp.. Tapi, it is a normal for preggy mum having this kind of sakit2. Sebab tu lah, mengandung dan bersalin ni salah satu penghapus dosa.

Memang x boleh nak elak, memang kadang2 merungut. Badan penat and sakit2. Tapi, ada preggy mum yang treat pregnancy as penyakit. Over concern, overcautious dan segala macam over lagi la.

Yang obses dengan segala pantang larang lagi la. Benda yang pelik main ikut semacam. Benda paling senang nak tengok is pemakanan. Memang la makan raw things. It leads to salmonela. (sila google). Tapi, jangan treat benda tu je as pantang..kalau air manis etc elok je ko hentam. Treat both hidden threats equally.

Ada plak tu, bila pregnant je, terus tolak kerja2 kat tempat kerja mentah2. Konon x boleh nak buat kerja berat sangat. Dah tu, orang sihat and tak pregnant ni kena ni beralah selalu. Memang la privilege tu dapat. Sebabnya, orang kesian. Tapi kalau every single detail kerja ko buat macam ko nak beranak le le tu jugak, x ke orang panas ati? It's your choice to get pregnant, deal with it. Cuma, orang lain ada courtesy nak kesiankan ko as mak buyung.

Ish.... jangan buat manja sangat la.

31 weeks' progress and throwback

Assalam,

Dah masuk 31 minggu rupanya. Hari ni check up kat HTAA. Dah start check up dua minggu skali. Susah? Mula-mula rasa leceh check up kat hospital, check up KK lagi. Orang memang akan tanya, "ehh..check up lagi minggu ni?". Aah. memang tu la rutin saya. Sekarang dah rasa biasa.

Dua minggu skali, kena buat BSP (blood sugar profile). Ni hasilnya kalau korg diabetic masa preggy ya. Nak tau lagi, Google ler. Awal-awal dulu, siap nanges kalau hari nak buat BSP. Yela, sehari kena buat 4 kali. kul 8 pg, 12 noon, 5.30pm and 8.30pm. Bayangkan mentally tortured camne. Dah la time tu mengajar, kena lak ulang alik g klinik, kena lak reading tinggi. Sepatutnya range dlm 4-5.6 je. Bila reading glucose tinggi, kena buat lagi minggu depan. Ulang-alik lagi. Memang rasa nak nangis tu sangat la. Tapi, lepas pinjam FIL punya glucose tester, saya xyah dah pegi klinik utk BSP. Test sendiri je. Legaaa...

 Tapi, lepas tu saya dapat tips dari kakak opis. Jangan makan 2 jam before test, banyakkan air kosong. Memang bagus la petua tu. So, amalkan kurangkan gula tu. Sangat bagus. Hba1C sy pon OK je.. dah dua kali test still 4.8. Ngam la tu..

pregnancy kali ni saya amalkan VCO awal sket sbb ada masalah membuang. Hehe.. so, kena la cari bahan bantuan. So far, dari 5 bulan amalkan, dah nak masuk 8 bulan ni, hasil sgt memberansangkan. Even HB pon x turun dr 11.9. Nak promote brand apa? Saya makan D'Aura punya. Nak makan jenis lain pon OK. and saya makan jenis soft gel. x lalu nak makan yg liquid. Tak pasal muntah lak kang, Haha.

So.... tadi dah g check kali ke 5 kat hospital. Last visit, doc ada mention yang akan discuss mode of delivery. Tp doc ni x discuss pun. So, saya tanya je la. Doc tu kata, kita discuss masa 33 wks or so la. so far, dia tengok baby still sorg cephalic (kepala bawah), sorg breech (songsang). Kalau ada rezeki, yg breech tu pusing boleh la nk normal. Tapi, as per condition hari ni, perut dah sangat penuh. Kalau sampai 34 weeks, dia memang bg option jugak nak normal. But for me, saya prefer c-sect je. Tak nak risiko, dah normal sorg, complication plak..sorg lagi c-sect. x mau ahhh atas bawah kena jahit. 😭😭

Scan arini:
Boy 1.8kg
Girl 1.6kg.

Ala..shayamss mama. cepat besar OK?..

My 33rd birthday celebration

Ok...mak tau ni 2nd entry for today. Meroyan sikit..hahahha

This celebration deserved an entry. Asyik sibuk cite preknen je, mcm xde benda lain dah. Hahahaha.

Last week, Selasa, 25th October 2016.. Cukuplah umur 33 tahun. Tua dah kan? Haihhhh... takpe la. Nak buat cane. Mana ada orang makin hari, makin muda. Outer look, ye lah. Ko bleh pakai Keihl's, SKII bagai.. umur tu tetap gak meningkat. Deny la banyak mana pon.

Hah, merepek pulak. Ok, berbalik pada cerita hari tu.

Malam sebelum, mood kelaut sket. Penat. Perut dah berbondong-bondong kedepan. Tapi, hubby suruh si Adam nyanyi lagu birthday. Sudahnya, dia humming je. Mama pon sengeh je la. Pastu tido. Malam tu, dalam kul 2 pagi kut, si Humaira mintak susu. Sempat la Hubby wish birthday (dia bangun and buat susu). Dalam ngantuk-ngantuk tu jawab "tq" (rasanya jawab kut..haha).

Pagi, mata dah terbukak fresh, kali ni betul-betul punya wish. Haha..Ok, saya semangat jawab "Thanks". Salam hubby and g kerja sambil sengih2.

Dalam kul 8 lebih, perut dah berkeroncong tamil nadu. Aktiviti wajib pegi breakfast kat cafe staff. Amik nasik lauk, then duduk. Ada call masuk.

Caller: Assalam, puan. Puan di office ke?
Me: Aah. Tapi, saya kat cafe ni. Bukan kat office. Siapa ni?
Caller:  Saya nak hantar barang kat Puan.
Me: (Sape pulak? Ish..scammer ke stalker ke ni??) Aaaa....kenapa nak hantar barang. Saya xde kat office.
Caller: Saya jumpa puan kat sana la ya. Ada barang suami puan hantar.
Me: (Dah dapat idea apekah benda ni!) Owh...hahahaha...datang la... Hahahaha. Saya kat cafe.
Call ended
*muka cuak sebab ramai orang kat cafe.

Kakak tu call lagi. Saya pandang kat kereta kancil putih tu, then dia kenal la siapa puan Farah yg dia nak anta brg tu. Pastu, jeng..jeng..jengggg.. Siap nyanyi lagi, there was a bouquet of chocolates and a balloon. Hahaha..tu diaaa!!!

Pastu, tengahari. Rupa-rupanya, kak adda n my colleagues siap beli cake lagi!! Hahahaha. Sukanyaaaa!!!

oppsss...abaikan perut boyot itteww..hahahaha

Dah siap lunch, so, I checked my whatsapp. Eh?! Ada parcel rupanya. Tapi rasanya xde plak beli barang online this week.. hmmm???? So, pegi la ke admin n amik brg. Tgk nama sender... x kenal, description- cake..huh?? address- Kedah??? Haikkk...mana punya secret admirer anta kek ni. Hahaha. Ok, lastnya..tengok no phone receiver. Aik, ni no phone Kak G ni. Hahahaha...
Nak lagi kelakar, bukak2 parcel..muka aku atas kek!! Hahahaha..mmg pecah perut la. But it was a nice swiss roll cake. Hahahaha.

Sama x dengan tuan dia? Hahahaha

Last surprise was the birthday cake from encik Hubby. Few weeks before, I whatsapp my hubby dearie. "Nak kek camni bday nanti". With a printscreen Victoria Sandwich Cake, dr sorang homebaker yang sy mmg slalu beli kek and lasagna. He fulfilled it!! Yay!! So, malam tu ada la potong2 kek and nyanyi2 dari anak kesayangans. Hahahaha..

the bouquet of chocs

My cake! Victoria sandwich cake

That's a wrap for the day. Muah muah!!

29 weeks and counting

Hola!!!

Today, just came back from routine check up at HTAA. Everything went well. The baby is gaining as expected. The previous breech position has changed to one breech and one cephalic. The girl cephalic and the boy is breech. But it is still too early as they can still change the position as long as they want.

The doc was asking whether has any doc discussed regarding the mode of delivery? Well, as far as I remembered, none was seriously discussed about that. They just mentioned that if the positions are OK, then normal is allowed. If breech, then Cesarean will be opted.

Then, she explain since I have reached the 29 weeks. For twins, it is normal for them to be delivered earlier than expected. As she looked at my belly, she concerned of how much bigger can my belly go. The size of the belly could also affect the maturity of the pregnancy. And then...the lengthy explanation. Hahahaha....

To tell the truth, I was kinda worried. Yeah, delivering twin. For those who think delivering them as easy as delivering the normal single baby, nope...nuh uh... I was exposed to the risk of fatigue, breech for second baby, C-sect for second baby, placenta ruptured, bleeding. Yeah, this is also risk for normal single delivery too but I am going to have higher risk to get that.

Most of people (including my mum), they were saying, "Boleh normal tu. Sakit c-zer tu lagi teruk. C-zer tu susah nak sihat."

I am more concern of my babies' conditions. I want them to be healthy. Imagine, after hours of contractions, I have to push twice, and if the one of the babies is breech, I have to undergo c-sect. Wow!!

So, my plan is, if they can make sure I won't go for any c-sect, then I will opt for normal.
But, this is just me talking. Hahahaha...

*malas nk dengar cakap orang dah. This is my body, and I controlled my decision.

The news

Assalam,

I plan to write this little journey of mine regularly but Allah's plan is better. Haha.. I was busy with all the things, life, work, mummy's life. Juggling between work and being a mum and wife is not an easy thing to do. Well, I still want to keep writing since I want to put the memory of my each pregnancy here.

It started when I decided to get pregnant. Humaira is 3, Adam is 5 and I think they are old enough to listen and do things that we asked. so, yeah... we go on with the plan.

That was in April 2016.

May 2016, I only realized that I was 'late' that month when a colleague mentioned about hers. I frantically looked at my mobile apps and yup, I get that butterfly fluttering in the stomach when it was supposed to be 3 days before that. I knew my body very well, thus I waited for another couple of days and tested at home. Again, the double line appear.

It was Ramadhan when my siblings found that I am pregnant. At the same time, my lil brother announced their good news too. So, there are two baby bumps in the family!! Yay! It was a really good news since my bro was waiting for two years for his baby. They got married when Humaira was 3 months.

My lil sister and my brother keep teasing me that I am pregnant with twin. I was laughing at their jokes. Uhuh...at that time, it was a funny thing. I said to them, "Ingat kucing ke nak anak banyak skali pregnant?" and who knows at that time, maybe the doa was granted then.

Weeks after that, I went to a clinic, alone, since I just want to do a confirmation. I have to register for my regular check up at the nearest Klinik Kesihatan. Thus the need of confirmation. It was Tuesday morning 21 June 2016, and I said to Ida n Kak Adda, I wanna go to our panel clinic. It was nearby, the Poliklinik Ar-Razi. I called hubby and told him again, though I had mentioned it the night before. He was reluctant to let me go alone. I said, everything would be fine. It was a simple test, or a scan. Hubby was having a meeting, so I didn't want to bother him. Moreover, this is my 3rd pregnancy (plus I had a D&C before). Alaaaa.... no biggie.

So, everything was normal. registered my name, asked for a female doctor and waited for my name to be called. Then, the doc asked me to do a scan. The lady doctor was wearing a full hijab. She asked a few things and scan my tummy. Suddenly, she said, "Allahuakbar, Subhanallah...." I was stunned. What was it? Was it something bad? My baby...is she OK?

"Alhamdulillah Puan. Puan pregnant kembar. Ada keturunan kembar ke?" (Alhamdulillah, you are pregnant with twin. Do you have any twins in the family?"
I was like, huh???? My brain couldn't register what she said. After a few seconds, I answered the family twins' history. (My parent both has twins in the family). I felt blood rushing to my cheek. It was overwhelming.

As soon as the scan ended, I whatsapp my husband and sent the scan picture to him with caption "Guess what?" and he replied, "A boy?". I couldn't stop laughing. How can he guess that. I was still at 10 weeks pregnant. I said, "twin". His replied was this..

Hahahaha..... I couldn't call him since he was in a meeting. Imagine him can't focus in the meeting..hahahaha

Then, I called my mum (while driving, yeah.... guilty of that. But I can't help myself.). She didn't sound so surprised but she was rambling about having the history of twins in the family etc...hahahaha...

Arrived at the office, I literally almost run to my office. I shouted Ida's name at the main door. Tried to cope with my breathing, I told her the good news and Kak Diah heard our screams. Hahahaha... Everyone was screaming with joy. Called kak Adda too and showed her the scan. Even the boss screamed!! Hahahaha.

I was on cloud nine all day long. Couldn't believe it myself.

 Well, that was the day I got the news. A very happy news.....

I should start writing again

Assalam,

Yeah.. I know. It's been a while. But, I think I should start writing again. With all these wonderful experience and great news, it's sad if I don't put it into writing, something that stays forever.

Let's recap.

2015- Got my M.Ed TESL. Barely finished it on time. Hahahaha
2016- Nothing much, I got pregnant not with one but two.

WHAT?!!!

Yeah.. I am bless with this 3rd pregnancy, TWIN!!

I am currently at my 18 weeks. The first trimester went quite OK. Not too much nausea, just lost few kilos and the bad news is I am stuck with GDM (Gestational Diabetic Melitus) or most people call it Diabetic during pregnancy. I'll write the whole story later, in the next post.

My kids, Adam and Humaira. Adam is 5 years old. He started his pre-school years last year (I can't remember whether I have mentioned this or not.). He became a very chatty boy, and is a very helpful child. Humaira just turned 3 last July and she is a very talkative one. When I say talkative, it means she can talk non-stop for one hour. I send her to Taska everyday, and she is kakak to some of the little kids there. I love her bouncy curly-at-end hair. But it is very difficult to manage, plus her sometimes don't-want-to-comb-her-hair attitude.

My husband, still a caring and understanding man. Love him to the moon and back. We have our ups and downs. Still, that's what marriage life is all about. Sharing the same burden and scratching each others' back.

Well, I'll better stop now. Got class to teach.
Till next post,
byeeee :)

Priceless..

Assalam..

Years ago, I have a lot of things that I love to do.

I love reading. Yes. I could finish reading a novel in one day.
Remember the thick Harry Potter series? I finished reading that thick novel (the last one) in two days. Hahaha...
I also love reading Malay novels. Ni lagi la, dalam 3/4 jam (with interruptions) pon boleh abis.

I love handmade things. Crafts, hand made cards, quilling, scrap book making... etc.
I make my own greeting cards, my book marks and I gave them to my friends too.

I love watching movie at cinema. Most of the time, I watched sci-fi, action movies and animation. I went to cinema with frens and mr.hubby of course.

I am crazy with tv dramas and series. Name it! Grey's Anatomy, CSI (all three), Rookie Blue, K-drama, Chinese series, ...

But those are PAST...
PAST TENSE...
ago..
was..
last time...

When I changed my status from a married lady to a mother, those are the things I sacrificed.

When I tried to watch my drama series, my two little kiddos will shriek for attention. When both of them had calm down, the drama had either ended or I just couldn't understand the storyline anymore.

When I took my quilling pen or tried to cut my papers, these babies will start 'helping' me. They tore them apart or mess with all my organized DIY materials. I had to put the stuff away or I had to take them away from the stuffs.

When I planned to have a midnight movie watching or a date with hubby, I have to consider should I left them with my mum. Can my mum handle their crying and wailing when they saw me leaving?

When my babies have already fell asleep, I pick up my novel, and ZZZzzzzz.... the novel thus became my bedtime stories.

Not to complain, far from making any unpleasant remarks. But, I just want to tell people, those are the things I miss. Some friends keep asking me, "It's been a while I saw u did this, did that..."Well, this is why. I am no longer a single lady, I am no longer living alone.
I am a mother of two and a wife. AND I am proud telling people that.

Those are the things I miss.
BUT
I never regret those sacrifices.
I'd rather have my kids than have those.
None can ever be exchanged for them.

Agree? :)
XOXO

HIATUS...

Assalamualaikum,

too many things to be done.

Need to straighten up all things first, then baru sambung merepek...


daaaaa...

Menegur untuk kebaikkan atau nak menjatuhkan?

Assalam,

Dah lama nak tulis pasal tajuk ni. Tapi, bila fikir-fikir, malas pulak. Baik tulis yang merepek saja. Hehe. Bila terjumpa kisah best yang kena ngan tajuk ni, so aku pun ada la idea nak tulis.


Kisahnya, ada sipolan ni. Menegur kat FB. Kawan dia ni makan dekat restoran yang empunya ialah Ca Ya Nun Alip. Tanya kawan dia ni kedai tu ada sijil halal x? Komen terang-terang kat FB.
Bagi aku la, mesti la yg kena tegur tu terkedu sebab baru terpikir, tadi makan kat kedai tak halal ke? Selama ni memang Muslim makan je kat situ. Takde pulak huru hara sebab kedai tu jual makanan tak halal. Pastu, kena tegur di khalayak ramai (dlm FB kan semua orang boleh baca). Malu tak kalau jadi kawan tu tadi? Malu lah!

Nak jadi cerita, kawan ni tak puas hati. Dia bukak website Halal Jakim, google apa yang patut. Jumpa la dia dgn penyataan yang kedai tu Halal sebenarnya. Cuma pernah ada kontroversi. (Macam kes Starbucks yg org kecoh x halal, tapi sebenarnya ada sijil Halal). Kawan ni reply la semula comment tu.

Yang aku nak highlight sini adalah cara komen tu.

Bila nak tegur isu-isu sensitif, ada baiknya guna pendekatan secara halus. Banyak cara. Ada fon number, message la. Lagi senang, guna Whatsapp.
Tak ada no phone? PM kat FB. Ko dah boleh komen, takkan takleh message kut?
Tak boleh message sebab orang tu dah privatekan FB dia? Comment la dengan penuh bijaksana. Guna ayat yang bertepatan dan bukan dengan nada sindiran.

Teringat cerita UstazKazim Alias, dalam satu ceramah dia di TV. Meh aku share ringkasan cerita tu;
"Ada seorang kakak ni. Dia hantar anak ke sekolah tak pakai tudung. Hari-hari kakak ni bertembung dengan Ustaz Kazim. Ustaz tak tegur apa pun. Ustaz cuma bagi salam. Hari-hari. Mula-mula kakak ni, turun dengan baju lengan pendek. Lepas tu, kakak ni berubah sikit demi sedikit. Akhirnya, dia berubah pakai tudung. Hanya dengan salam yang diberikan oleh ustaz Kazim."

 Hidup kita ni, kalau nak menegur kena la ada caranya. Kena berhikmah dan halus. Rasulullah saw mengislamkan umat manusia pun bukannya letak parang kat leher orang. Semuanya bermula dengan senyap dan rahsia.

Nak tegur orang pon perlu siasat juga sahih atau tak sesuatu perkara tu ye.
:)

Jadilah generasi berilmu, bukan generasi yang hanya tahu share tapi ilmu tak ada. Malu je dapat.

The most expensive things I ever spent on

Assalamualaikum wbth..


WEEEEEEE!!!! YEAY!!!! Alhamdulillah. Dah abis semua assignments siap dihantar walaupun dengan berpenat lelah, x cukup tidur, siang malam penat bekerja. Hah! Tu dia! I can pat my own shoulder. (sbb xde org nak pat my shoulder, pat sendiri je la. hihik). Cuma minggu ni, hari Sabtu ada final exam. Seb baik satu paper je. Lepas ni, no more weekends classes. Tapi, jangan nak senang ati sangat ye Pn. Farah. Nun, project paper tergantung lagi tu. Jangan berangan ko dah dpt scroll ye.


Ok. Bila dah free ni, banyakkkkk sangat benda boleh buat. Balik2 tu, boleh siap lepak ngan anak2 lagi. Nampak sangat sebelum ni asyik sibukkkkk je memanjang. Anak-anak pun kurang kena layan. Sorry Adam, sorry Adik. I'll make up to both of u...

Pencapaian terbaik sepanjang minggu lepas adalah, melipat kain berbakul-bakul yang terhimpun selama seminggu. Ha! Amik ko. penat melipat. Hehe. Tu yang terhimpun mgu lepas. Sebelum ni xde la lipat. Semuanya, kalau nak pakai cari dalam bakul. Lawaks hoccay... incik suami pon tolong lipat. Shayammm bie..

Balik2 mama layan budak masham berdua ni dulu.

So...project seterusnya adalah... house items hunting. Alhamdulillah. Last week pegi tengok kawasan rumah, n tersergam rumah dah siap kunci n basuh by the contractor. Dengar cerita bulan 6 ni mmg drg akan bagi kunci. Suka!!!!

Sangat la hepi, unimaginable! (Gitew skali ok!). Bukan apa, imagine selama 4 tahun kawen, asyik duduk rumah sempit sewa mahal, tuan rumah jenis tuan tanah kedaung. Huh! Bila kita claim brg rumah rosak, dia bising, saying that we are the one who used it..bla..bla bla... (eh..rasa mcm penat merepek pasal benda ni. xpe la). Tuan rumah jenis mengungkit n nak naikkan sewa for the sake of taking advantage. Takpe la kak. Lepas saya keluar ni, akak makan la duit sewa akak tu puas2.

Ok...ni gamba rumah saya. Kaler ijau ok? Hahahaha.. layan je la. 

Baiti Jannati

Sekarang ni duk wat list to do. Nak beli apa yang patut. Previously, dah update pasal benda2 major kan? Sekarang benda2 remeh-temeh.

1. Cat- my sofa is dark grey. So, I am trying to match the color of the paint dengan sofa. Hmmm... color ape eh? The children n my bedroom too. Hahaha... poning palo mokcik nak pikir.

2. My babies bedrooms- Nak kena pikir almari, or children's nyer furniture ke?

3. Curtains- what kind of curtain types yg boleh match dengan wall color. Jenis kain? Nak tempah dengan sape?? Mahal x?

4. Kitchen- how should i arrange the kitchen? Banyak tak barang nak letak?


Ala....banyaknya benda nk pikir. Hire satu ID sudah... kuikuikuiiii

Sometimes you just have to stop what you are doing

Assalamualaikum,

It is going to be a bit emotional writing from me today.

As a mother and a wife, I am really blessed to have a very understanding husband and two beautiful babies. Yes, they are. People will look at them, cooing and baby talking to them, especially Humaira. Fine...I don't mind.

BUT

I DO MIND if you are

1. SMOKING and try to get close to my baby.  Excuse me! Are you dumb or what? It is enough that you are jeopardizing your life. Don't put my baby in the same hole. Don't you know about passive smoker, idiot?

2. A WOMAN and my husband is holding the baby, and ME, the wife is not around. HELLO!!! Don't u feel the same if your boyfriend holding a phone and I am touching it? (not that my baby as cheap as that phone). The point is, stop messing with somebody's baby and husband whose wife is not there. You should be extra careful even if you are attracted to the baby so much. If the mother is holding the baby and you are a woman, that is a different story. Opposite sex is a big NO!

3. PURPOSELY MAKES MY BABY CRIES. Yes, baby cries a lot. But you are not the one who'll be panicking and desperately trying to stop the baby from crying. Don't you know that parents have a lot of things to do apart from that? Don't you know how to treat a baby?If you use your loud voice, your purposely sound angry voice, don't you think it is inappropriate? They'll get scared. Babies are months old and you are..?

Put yourself in the parents shoes. It is not that I am a very fussy mother. I am not to the extend, 'don't touch my baby, you are full of germs'. No, I am not. But, these simple things irritate me.

I love hearing words like my baby is beautiful and they are lovely, she is cute, Abang is adorable. Yeah...it kinda makes me a proud mama. But, I really can't tolerate with the 3 types above.

Please, if you think I am too much, wait until somebody do this to u. You'll know how it tastes. :)

P/s: Dah abis meroyan. Jom wat assignment.

Lagi sebulan...kununnn

Assalamualaikum,

Ok..hari ini..adalah hari bosan saya. Nak buat kerja, malas. Buka je paper exam budak, timbul la vitamin M dalam kepala.

Telefon lak rosak. Gapo neh. Time peak camni la rosak.

Ok, nak buat ape? Update blog la. Siap tuka background lagi. weetttt...

Rumah baru dijangka siap bulan June. Betul ke? Betul la kot. Ritu dah siap masuk dalam dah. Interior dah complete. Just air, elektrik. Tu belum.

Ok, latest update.

1. Grill & gate- Harga, mak aihhhh. Makan riban2. Hahaha. Padan la. Itu la harga sekarang. Tapi x finalize lagi sape la kontraktor nak buat ni. Gamba ni lebih kurang la ape dlm kepala kitorg... hmmmm




2. Kitchen kabinet- Dah book kat A-Craft. Cuma design x finalize. Nt drg akan datang ukur. Cadang2 nya nak buat ala2 yang dlm gamba ni sbb ruang dapur kecik. Nak sambung dapur, xde ongkos ya.



3. Lighting- dah gi usha kedai lampu. Hasil? Tak payah la bawak saya lenkali. Tak berminat betul nak pilih lampu. Rasa x menarik langsung. Saya akan serahkan semuanya pada incik suami le kalo gitu. Tak mau amik tau.

So far, ni je la kot. yang lain2 tunggu dapat kunci rumah la. Hahahaha

The reason

Assalamualaikum wbth,

Orang slalu buat lawak dengan saya.

"Adik dah besar dah ni. Boleh dah start no. 3."

Takpun drg punya opinion tatkala kita bercerita pasal mengandung akan ada berbunyi macam ni,
"Lagi baik mengandung dekat-dekat. Sekali je penat masa drg kecik-kecik ni. Memang la haru sikit. Tapi, dah besar esok, xpayah dah nak mengandung semula."

Saya dengan lajunya akan menggeleng atau tersengih or even menidakkan keupayaan saya untuk menambah ahli keluarga dalam masa terdekat. Jawapan saya, biarlah Adik besar dulu. Atau, saya nak habiskan belajar dulu. Last skali, saya akan jawab, saya kesiankan anak-anak saya. Kurang kasih sayang.

Jawapan saya yang last skali tu yang paling tepat skali.

Saya mengaku, saya kadang-kadang terlebih emosi. Balik kerja, penat...datang la si abang meminta perhatian. Biasa la, budak. Bila kita kurang layan, dia akan buat la benda pelik-pelik bagi kita tengok dia. Panjat meja, tarik kerusi, cucuk kepala Adik. Nak suruh kita jerit nama dia.
Kalau kita jerit tu, dia berhenti xpe jugak. Lagi dia buat tak tahu.

Macam biasa, PAP! se das mama kasi. Kena la kat mana-mana paling hampir.

Hasil? Dia akan lari sambil sebut, Aduh..aduh... or dia akan start cebik or nangis.

Bila dia dah nangis, runtun hati mama. Nak tarik balik x boleh. Menyesal je la.

Dah guane? Nak tambah sorang lagi? Yang sedia ada ni pon x terlayan. Adik masih baby. Of course dia perlukan more attention. Abang pon nak attention. Bila tak terlayan, akan jadilah scene mcm cite tadi.

Ok, mommy kat luar sana mesti kata macam-macam. Takpe la. SuperMom mcm drg mmg terbaik la kan. But, I honestly can't cope with the situation. Condemn la camne skali pun. But u don't walk using my shoes. U don't have my life. and even if we are sharing the same story, u are not me.

Mungkin ini juga sebabnya wanita disuruh menyusukan anak sehingga 2 tahun.

Tapi, rezeki pemberian ALLAH. HE knows the best.

:)

Rezki jangan ditolak...Alhamdulillah.

Abang dan adik

Assalamualaikum,


Lama dah x merepek kat sini. Pastu jarang-jarang pulak. Lagipon, xde keperluan sgt. Blog ni sekadar tempat aku menceceh x tentu pasal dan jugak untuk aku simpan memories sbb kat internet ni umpama diary yang xde orang boleh padam (yeke? lebih kurang la, sbb kalo ko upload gamba, rasanya...sampai bila-bila ada kut eventho ko dah delete).


Lagipon, ramai dah member2 blogger dah x rajin update. Nak lagi, senang kalau guna Ig or FB (agree!). Cuma aku rasa, kat FB tu ridiculous plak nak type panjang lebar. Nak merapu, disini lebih senang.


Aku memang x ramai follower (sebab aku hide from being Google searched). Yang tau blog ni, cuma kawan-kawan rapat aku. Aku xde la hide sampai nak invite certain people untuk baca blog ni (sadis sangat tu). xde follower? X rugi pape pon. Aku bukan nak umumkan aku tulis apa. Jauh lagi dari aku nak jadi blogger famous.. x penah terlintas kott..


Okeh, hari ni, nak citer pasal abang dan adik. Muhammad Adam Fahmi dan Humaira Faihanah. Ni la permata hati aku ngan hubby skrg. Abang dah 2 1/2 tahun. Adik dah 7 bulan.

Abang aka Muhammad Adam Fahmi

Adam ni memang aktif giler! Tak pernah takut kat orang (aku lak yg jadi overcautious, duk takut orang tarik n bawak lari). Dia punya lasak sampai certain people yang anaknya behave, akan kata anak aku nakal. Kadang-kadang aku risau gak, apa laorang kata aku kat belakang.Tak pandai jaga anak ke, Adam ni hiperaktif ke (nauzubillah hi min zaliq). Tapi, xpela. Redha. Genetik aku kot turun kat anak. OR dia rasa tergugat dengan kehadiran si adik. So, dia sangat la nak attention aku.


Dia ni lambat bercakap. Imagine, 2 1/2 yrs..dia belum dapat ckp full sentence. Tapi, dalam risau-risau, aku xde la suspek dia xboleh bercakap. Evidencenya, dia pernah cari papa dia, sambil tu dia sebut, " Papa, where are you?". hah! Tergezut mak! speaking London rupanya anak aku sorang ni. Aku punya hypothesis is dia confuse sebab dia diasuh dengan 2 languages (Malay and English). Kadang-kadang tu, bila dia tak faham, dia akan tanya, "What?". Ko bayangkan, mak aku yang x reti cakap English ni, cucu dia tanya "what?". Hahahaha....Klaka kutt kalau korg tgk. Takpe la nak oiii...

Humaira Faihanah

Then, si adik. Ni bahan gomolan kitorg kat umah la kan. Aku suka je panggil adik ni, "Kededek" (apa kededek tu jangan tanya aku...manja sangat la kut bunyinya..). Adik ni manja. Ni jarang menangis beria-ia. Paling kuat pon kalau dia terjaga dari tidur, pastu dia tengok keliling xde orang. Sakan la dia jerit. Pompuan kut. Nangis pon lemah lembut la. Haha.


Tapi, dia ni susah nak naik berat. Nurse dah komplen. Aku buat tak tau je la. Dah tu? Aku nak buat ape? Nak suap yang bukan-bukan? Sori la. Aku rela dengar bebelan korg dari aku bagi anak aku food tah hapa-hapa. Bukan la aku bagi dia makan (aku siap masakkan lagi, hoccay?). Tapi aku particular skit. Bukan apa, sekarang ni banyak sangat preservatives yang x elok. Zaman kita ni bukan mcm zaman mak-mak kita. Bagi je anak makan yg instant, halalan toyyiban. Sekarang ni, dengan masuk chemical la, preservatives la...hish...dengar pon da ngeri.

Cubaan pakaikan adik stokin

Ok, abang ngan adik ni memang nampak close. Adam xde la nak tunjuk marah kalau orang pegang adik dia (adik pon takut ngan orang). Tapi, kalau adik nangis, adam la yang akan tunjukkan susu. Bagus abang ni! Semalam, adik jatuh tilam (xde la tinggi sangat). Adik punya raung dah semacam dah. Nangis xde bunyi. Adam ni cuak, dia dtg dekat and tepuk2 kepala adik. Try nak pujuk. siap kiss kepala adik. Sayang x abang kat adik?

Baring-baring dalam kereta myvi

Tu cite dia masa sayang adik.


Ni masa dia geram kat adik. Adam ni, kalau dia nampak adik tu main atas lantai, dia datang la dekat. Ada la aksi nak pijak jari adik, nak duduk (kuda) atas adik. Tak ke menjerit aku!!! Adik tu setotet ot je. Kalau dia duduk atas adik tu, mau tercirit si kecik tu? Pernah aku nampak dia nak tumbuk adik.


Hadui!! Korang nampak tak betapa stress mak! Hahaha..


Tapi tu la, sekarang ni memang la haru biru. Sok..sok.. rindu lak nak tengok gelagat drg. (xpe la, nanti buat baby baru..kuikuikui).


Ok la..aku ni sebenarnya tgh buat soalan final exam. tapi, sebab stuck, trus stop. melencong kesini. Dah..dah...jom sambung kerja.

Bila diberi peringatan

Assalamualaikum,

Dari Ka‘ab bin Iyadh RA, ia berkata, “Aku mendengar Rasulullah SAW ber­sabda, ‘Sesungguhnya masing-masing umat ada ujiannya, dan ujian umatku adalah harta kekayaan’.” (Diriwayatkan oleh At-Tirmidzi).



Disaat nikmat Allah swt sampai, mulut manusia berat mengagungkan Yang Esa. Seolah rezeki itu, diperoleh semata dengan titik peluh, ganjaran seberat yang diusahakan. Lupa seketika, tiada yang mungkin tanpa izinNya.

Bila kita diuji dengan kesusahan, kesakitan, hilang nikmat hidup... ketika itu segera minda teringatkan Pencipta. Ketika itu, kedua tangan menadah memohon bantuan. Ya Rabb, bantulah hamba mu ini.

Mengadu bantuan Ilahi itu ibarat aspirin. Ketika sakit, itulah yang dicari.

Alpanya aku..
Mudahnya aku lalai..

Alhamdulillah,
Allah swt masih sygkan aku
Masih lagi Dia berikan ujian padaku
Masih lagi Dia mahukan aku kembali kukuhkan ingatanku dan rinduku padaNya.
Alhamdulillah

Aku masih disayanginya.
Untungya aku, Ya Rabb

Dah 2014??

Assalamualaikum.

wahhh... tahun baru sudey! hikhiks...
Tahun ni, xde azam rasanya. Cuma nak menyiapkan apa yang belum lengkap.

Nak jadi lebih muslimah,
nak jadi ibu yang gagah
nak lebih berhati mulia dan tegas
nak lebih produktif dan hidup lebih tersusun

Moga tahun ini
1. Rumah baru saya siap awal
2. Master saya abis dengan jayanya

Ini semua bukan azam tahun baru.
Ni azam dah nak naik tepu...hahahaha...
Tiap kali tahun bru nak buat azam baru jek.
Tahun ni...kita renew je la.

Buleh gitew?

Plagiat @ plagiarism

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ini ada rasa untuk bercakap pasal sesuatu yg berkenaan akademik sikit. Though, abaikan bahasa rojak dan pasar dlm entry ini.

Waktu-waktu bertungkus-lumus macam ni, tiba-tiba terasa jerihnya menyiapkan assignment. Bukan satu, kadang-kadang sampai lima untuk siap dalam masa dua minggu. Rasa tak cukup tangan. Bak kata officemate cum classmate, Cik Ida... nak ada tentakel sotong tu rasanya. Baru bleh siap agaknya.

Memang kita akan buka bermacam-macam database untuk dapatkan journal. Bermacam-macam website kita buka. Berpinar bijik mata nak baca articles. Tapi, baca je la. Nak buat camne.

Tetapi, itu bukan alasan untuk mengamalkan plagirism ni.

Kebanyakkan orang, sorry to mention this, bukan academician, merasakan yang plagiarise tu perkara biasa. Copy and paste tu biasa. Ambil ayat dari journal atau artikel tu perkara biasa.

SORRY.

Itu ciplak namanya. Tiru. Ambil idea orang lain. Pemalas. Keje nak senang aje.

Korang ingat sikit, Korang amik kerja-kerja orang, korang mengaku kerja sendiri, korang ingat korang pandai bila lecturer bagi A?

Ingat sikit, korang tu belajar sebab ape? Sebab nak sekeping sijil.

Sijil tu untuk ape? Untuk naik gaji/pangkat.

Naik gaji sebab nak bagi siapa and untuk apa?
Nak bagi anak bini makan, bagi duit kat mak ayah. Nak guna makan sendiri.

BAGUS LAH! Bagi la makan hasil tiru korang tu.

Sorry la, agak kasar ayat tu. Tapi, itu realiti.

Aku agak bengang dengan pemikiran orang sekarang yang nak senang semua benda tapi tak nak jujur. Student dari satu local college ni (aku tak nak mention kat sini) yang paling slalu buat benda ni. Aku dah encounter berbagai jenis manusia yang nak siapkan assignment dari kolej ni.

KES 1: Pernah bayar orang lain buat assignment.
KES 2: Nak pinjam academic project bulat2 sebab nak buat proposal. Kalau approve, boleh trus copy academic project tu. Siap minta soft copy lg.
KES 3: Copy ayat dr journal n encik google sebab nak nampak very academic n senang. Alter sana-sini, siap!

Perghhhh!!!

Menyirap darah aku. Nasib baik la bukan aku lecturer drg. Kalau tak, lama dah aku buat benda2 yang agak kurang beradab disitu.

Rasa susah buat assignment? Sebab tu la ko belajar.

Banyak idea dlm artikel? Quote la, bukan copy sebijik sejibon. Dengan acknowledge nama-nama penulis tu, ko x dikira tiru tp itu menunjukkan ko banyak membaca dan mencari rujukan. 

Tapi,susah nak educate orang kalau pebuatnya belajar bukan tahap sekolah tapi dah tahap degree.

Aku ni pening pikir macam mana nak educate students aku, jangan tiru tapi buat rujukan. Tapi, susahnya lah nak ajar drg ni jangan tiru. Sebab dalam certain classes je drg ni tak dibenarkan copy and paste. Camne tu? Kalau dah terbiasa, tak leh la kata apa.

Lagi satu, bak kata kawan aku Yana.
Korang ingat teachers ni tak boleh detect ke korang plagiarise?
Silap la.
Ada student aku siap copy kawan dia punya assignment. Bulat-bulat.
Memang sakit la kan bila aku dapat.

Aku bukan kata aku ni suci dari dosa.Aku x kata aku xpernah plagiarise. Tapi,aku belajar untuk tidak. Bila dah tahu itu salah, jangan la buat lagi.

Ni tak, dah tau...selamba je buat lagi. Dah terbiasa. Itu la sebabnya.

Ish, ok la. Malas merepek lama-lama. Daaaa.....

Apa yang saya ada hanya...

Assalamualaikum,

Disaat kawan-kawan Like page Tiffany&co di Facebook,
Saya cuma ada harta pemberian dikala risik, tunang, nikah dan hadiah dari suami saya

Disaat kawan-kawan berjalan di luar negara,
Saya bertungkus-lumus menyiapkan assignments dan bekerja

Disaat kawan-kawan saya membeli handbag jenama mewah,
Harga beribu jua, malah ada yang saya tidak pernah dengar designernya,
Saya mengira belanja seharian, yang lebih saya letakkan untuk cahaya hati saya berdua,
Buat baju sehelai dua,

Disaat kawan-kawan saya membawa anak mereka ke bercuti,
Ke Disneyland, ke Legoland,
Saya hanya mampu membawa mereka pulang
Ke kampung halaman, bertemu nenda

Melihat kawan-kawan makan berselera
Di cafe-cafe terkemuka, merasa enaknya segala
Saya hanya boleh membeli lauk di pasar
Masak sendiri untuk keluarga

Bukan niat perlekeh teman-teman
Jauh sekali untuk mengata
Namun itu rezeki mereka
Apa yang saya ada, itu sebaiknya untuk saya
Alhamdulillah..

Saya bandingkan yang lebih mewah
Bila dibandingkan dengan yang lebih kurang
Bukankah saya yang lebih mewah?

Allah itu Maha Adil
Dia beri seadanya
Dia beri saya teman hidup
Anak-anak, suami
Walaupun saya tiada apa...

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My 2014 wish list

Assalamualaikum,

Pagi ni rasa agak ceria sikit sebab pagi2 si Iera dah sibuk nak bukak radio EraFm. Dgr la karutan JoHaRa. Tapi yang buat saya ceria bukan sebab dj2 radio tu merepek, tapi mendengar 'chant' Elephant Army untuk skuad Tok Gajah. Semangat wooooo!!

GO, TOK GAJAH! GOOOOO! Ini baru la, THIS IS PANTAI TIMUR!! and This is DARUL MAKMUR!!!!
 

Pape pun,penyokong..jangan gaduh hoccay???

Ok, so pepagi ni merepek jap ngan Ida..bukak FB cari tu cari ni... tetiba tgk gamba2 orang..pastu,bersemangat nak buat something. Hapo dio?  Ni ha, den punyo Wish List 2014.. Kenapa 2014? Bukan sekarang. Sebab sekarang rasanya x berkesempatan dah. Semput lak kalau nak buat.

1. Complete my M.ED. (In Shaa Allah.. Amin)- Kalau semuanya according to plan, dalam bulan 5 settle kut.

2. Decorate rumah baru - Perancangannya bulan 3 dah boleh masuk, tapi tu x kira CF bla,bla,bla...lagi.

3. Nak kurus... - Yang ni, xtau la bila boleh nak kurusnya. hahahaha.

pastu baru boleh..

4. Nak ambil family studio pictures - Dah kurus, Humaira dah besar sikit, Adam dah kurang lasak sikit. Baru tenang nak ambil gambar.

5. Nak jalan-jalan cuti-cuti Malaysia (dalam Malaysia je) -Ni kena habiskan M.Ed dulu.Kalau tak, tak senang duduk la. Asyik ingat assignment and Projects.

So far, ni je la wish lish yang ada. Kalau ada lagi, boleh ditambah kemudian. Hoyeah.

Lament..

Assalamualaikum...

The past 2 weeks was kind of crazy for me. Struggling to finish up all the assignments which due today (30/10/13) and handling my little brother's wedding.

Yay, that is the current family (without my lil baby-Humaira. somebody was so attached to her, and I forgot to get her).

Now, I kinda feel a bit .... i don't know how to put this. Missing? Yeah, maybe that's the right words. I miss my lil bro. Funny eh?

I won't say that we are really close but I do keep in touch, SMS, online messaging, and I called him whenever I feel I want to. I never thought of that he will be busy, so I will call him anytime I want.

Now that he is no longer alone, having a wife and all.. a piece of me feel like... lost. If I want to call him, my heart will remind me.. He has wife, won't you be disturbing him? If I want him to do this and that...he no longer can be asked like he was alone before.

I don't know. Maybe this is only a thing that happen because the wedding is still raw. it is only 2 days after the ceremony. I have not gotten used to this yet. But still... I lost a little brother and he is now  a man. :)