31 weeks' progress and throwback

Assalam,

Dah masuk 31 minggu rupanya. Hari ni check up kat HTAA. Dah start check up dua minggu skali. Susah? Mula-mula rasa leceh check up kat hospital, check up KK lagi. Orang memang akan tanya, "ehh..check up lagi minggu ni?". Aah. memang tu la rutin saya. Sekarang dah rasa biasa.

Dua minggu skali, kena buat BSP (blood sugar profile). Ni hasilnya kalau korg diabetic masa preggy ya. Nak tau lagi, Google ler. Awal-awal dulu, siap nanges kalau hari nak buat BSP. Yela, sehari kena buat 4 kali. kul 8 pg, 12 noon, 5.30pm and 8.30pm. Bayangkan mentally tortured camne. Dah la time tu mengajar, kena lak ulang alik g klinik, kena lak reading tinggi. Sepatutnya range dlm 4-5.6 je. Bila reading glucose tinggi, kena buat lagi minggu depan. Ulang-alik lagi. Memang rasa nak nangis tu sangat la. Tapi, lepas pinjam FIL punya glucose tester, saya xyah dah pegi klinik utk BSP. Test sendiri je. Legaaa...

 Tapi, lepas tu saya dapat tips dari kakak opis. Jangan makan 2 jam before test, banyakkan air kosong. Memang bagus la petua tu. So, amalkan kurangkan gula tu. Sangat bagus. Hba1C sy pon OK je.. dah dua kali test still 4.8. Ngam la tu..

pregnancy kali ni saya amalkan VCO awal sket sbb ada masalah membuang. Hehe.. so, kena la cari bahan bantuan. So far, dari 5 bulan amalkan, dah nak masuk 8 bulan ni, hasil sgt memberansangkan. Even HB pon x turun dr 11.9. Nak promote brand apa? Saya makan D'Aura punya. Nak makan jenis lain pon OK. and saya makan jenis soft gel. x lalu nak makan yg liquid. Tak pasal muntah lak kang, Haha.

So.... tadi dah g check kali ke 5 kat hospital. Last visit, doc ada mention yang akan discuss mode of delivery. Tp doc ni x discuss pun. So, saya tanya je la. Doc tu kata, kita discuss masa 33 wks or so la. so far, dia tengok baby still sorg cephalic (kepala bawah), sorg breech (songsang). Kalau ada rezeki, yg breech tu pusing boleh la nk normal. Tapi, as per condition hari ni, perut dah sangat penuh. Kalau sampai 34 weeks, dia memang bg option jugak nak normal. But for me, saya prefer c-sect je. Tak nak risiko, dah normal sorg, complication plak..sorg lagi c-sect. x mau ahhh atas bawah kena jahit. 😭😭

Scan arini:
Boy 1.8kg
Girl 1.6kg.

Ala..shayamss mama. cepat besar OK?..

My 33rd birthday celebration

Ok...mak tau ni 2nd entry for today. Meroyan sikit..hahahha

This celebration deserved an entry. Asyik sibuk cite preknen je, mcm xde benda lain dah. Hahahaha.

Last week, Selasa, 25th October 2016.. Cukuplah umur 33 tahun. Tua dah kan? Haihhhh... takpe la. Nak buat cane. Mana ada orang makin hari, makin muda. Outer look, ye lah. Ko bleh pakai Keihl's, SKII bagai.. umur tu tetap gak meningkat. Deny la banyak mana pon.

Hah, merepek pulak. Ok, berbalik pada cerita hari tu.

Malam sebelum, mood kelaut sket. Penat. Perut dah berbondong-bondong kedepan. Tapi, hubby suruh si Adam nyanyi lagu birthday. Sudahnya, dia humming je. Mama pon sengeh je la. Pastu tido. Malam tu, dalam kul 2 pagi kut, si Humaira mintak susu. Sempat la Hubby wish birthday (dia bangun and buat susu). Dalam ngantuk-ngantuk tu jawab "tq" (rasanya jawab kut..haha).

Pagi, mata dah terbukak fresh, kali ni betul-betul punya wish. Haha..Ok, saya semangat jawab "Thanks". Salam hubby and g kerja sambil sengih2.

Dalam kul 8 lebih, perut dah berkeroncong tamil nadu. Aktiviti wajib pegi breakfast kat cafe staff. Amik nasik lauk, then duduk. Ada call masuk.

Caller: Assalam, puan. Puan di office ke?
Me: Aah. Tapi, saya kat cafe ni. Bukan kat office. Siapa ni?
Caller:  Saya nak hantar barang kat Puan.
Me: (Sape pulak? Ish..scammer ke stalker ke ni??) Aaaa....kenapa nak hantar barang. Saya xde kat office.
Caller: Saya jumpa puan kat sana la ya. Ada barang suami puan hantar.
Me: (Dah dapat idea apekah benda ni!) Owh...hahahaha...datang la... Hahahaha. Saya kat cafe.
Call ended
*muka cuak sebab ramai orang kat cafe.

Kakak tu call lagi. Saya pandang kat kereta kancil putih tu, then dia kenal la siapa puan Farah yg dia nak anta brg tu. Pastu, jeng..jeng..jengggg.. Siap nyanyi lagi, there was a bouquet of chocolates and a balloon. Hahaha..tu diaaa!!!

Pastu, tengahari. Rupa-rupanya, kak adda n my colleagues siap beli cake lagi!! Hahahaha. Sukanyaaaa!!!

oppsss...abaikan perut boyot itteww..hahahaha

Dah siap lunch, so, I checked my whatsapp. Eh?! Ada parcel rupanya. Tapi rasanya xde plak beli barang online this week.. hmmm???? So, pegi la ke admin n amik brg. Tgk nama sender... x kenal, description- cake..huh?? address- Kedah??? Haikkk...mana punya secret admirer anta kek ni. Hahaha. Ok, lastnya..tengok no phone receiver. Aik, ni no phone Kak G ni. Hahahaha...
Nak lagi kelakar, bukak2 parcel..muka aku atas kek!! Hahahaha..mmg pecah perut la. But it was a nice swiss roll cake. Hahahaha.

Sama x dengan tuan dia? Hahahaha

Last surprise was the birthday cake from encik Hubby. Few weeks before, I whatsapp my hubby dearie. "Nak kek camni bday nanti". With a printscreen Victoria Sandwich Cake, dr sorang homebaker yang sy mmg slalu beli kek and lasagna. He fulfilled it!! Yay!! So, malam tu ada la potong2 kek and nyanyi2 dari anak kesayangans. Hahahaha..

the bouquet of chocs

My cake! Victoria sandwich cake

That's a wrap for the day. Muah muah!!

The news

Assalam,

I plan to write this little journey of mine regularly but Allah's plan is better. Haha.. I was busy with all the things, life, work, mummy's life. Juggling between work and being a mum and wife is not an easy thing to do. Well, I still want to keep writing since I want to put the memory of my each pregnancy here.

It started when I decided to get pregnant. Humaira is 3, Adam is 5 and I think they are old enough to listen and do things that we asked. so, yeah... we go on with the plan.

That was in April 2016.

May 2016, I only realized that I was 'late' that month when a colleague mentioned about hers. I frantically looked at my mobile apps and yup, I get that butterfly fluttering in the stomach when it was supposed to be 3 days before that. I knew my body very well, thus I waited for another couple of days and tested at home. Again, the double line appear.

It was Ramadhan when my siblings found that I am pregnant. At the same time, my lil brother announced their good news too. So, there are two baby bumps in the family!! Yay! It was a really good news since my bro was waiting for two years for his baby. They got married when Humaira was 3 months.

My lil sister and my brother keep teasing me that I am pregnant with twin. I was laughing at their jokes. Uhuh...at that time, it was a funny thing. I said to them, "Ingat kucing ke nak anak banyak skali pregnant?" and who knows at that time, maybe the doa was granted then.

Weeks after that, I went to a clinic, alone, since I just want to do a confirmation. I have to register for my regular check up at the nearest Klinik Kesihatan. Thus the need of confirmation. It was Tuesday morning 21 June 2016, and I said to Ida n Kak Adda, I wanna go to our panel clinic. It was nearby, the Poliklinik Ar-Razi. I called hubby and told him again, though I had mentioned it the night before. He was reluctant to let me go alone. I said, everything would be fine. It was a simple test, or a scan. Hubby was having a meeting, so I didn't want to bother him. Moreover, this is my 3rd pregnancy (plus I had a D&C before). Alaaaa.... no biggie.

So, everything was normal. registered my name, asked for a female doctor and waited for my name to be called. Then, the doc asked me to do a scan. The lady doctor was wearing a full hijab. She asked a few things and scan my tummy. Suddenly, she said, "Allahuakbar, Subhanallah...." I was stunned. What was it? Was it something bad? My baby...is she OK?

"Alhamdulillah Puan. Puan pregnant kembar. Ada keturunan kembar ke?" (Alhamdulillah, you are pregnant with twin. Do you have any twins in the family?"
I was like, huh???? My brain couldn't register what she said. After a few seconds, I answered the family twins' history. (My parent both has twins in the family). I felt blood rushing to my cheek. It was overwhelming.

As soon as the scan ended, I whatsapp my husband and sent the scan picture to him with caption "Guess what?" and he replied, "A boy?". I couldn't stop laughing. How can he guess that. I was still at 10 weeks pregnant. I said, "twin". His replied was this..

Hahahaha..... I couldn't call him since he was in a meeting. Imagine him can't focus in the meeting..hahahaha

Then, I called my mum (while driving, yeah.... guilty of that. But I can't help myself.). She didn't sound so surprised but she was rambling about having the history of twins in the family etc...hahahaha...

Arrived at the office, I literally almost run to my office. I shouted Ida's name at the main door. Tried to cope with my breathing, I told her the good news and Kak Diah heard our screams. Hahahaha... Everyone was screaming with joy. Called kak Adda too and showed her the scan. Even the boss screamed!! Hahahaha.

I was on cloud nine all day long. Couldn't believe it myself.

 Well, that was the day I got the news. A very happy news.....

I should start writing again

Assalam,

Yeah.. I know. It's been a while. But, I think I should start writing again. With all these wonderful experience and great news, it's sad if I don't put it into writing, something that stays forever.

Let's recap.

2015- Got my M.Ed TESL. Barely finished it on time. Hahahaha
2016- Nothing much, I got pregnant not with one but two.

WHAT?!!!

Yeah.. I am bless with this 3rd pregnancy, TWIN!!

I am currently at my 18 weeks. The first trimester went quite OK. Not too much nausea, just lost few kilos and the bad news is I am stuck with GDM (Gestational Diabetic Melitus) or most people call it Diabetic during pregnancy. I'll write the whole story later, in the next post.

My kids, Adam and Humaira. Adam is 5 years old. He started his pre-school years last year (I can't remember whether I have mentioned this or not.). He became a very chatty boy, and is a very helpful child. Humaira just turned 3 last July and she is a very talkative one. When I say talkative, it means she can talk non-stop for one hour. I send her to Taska everyday, and she is kakak to some of the little kids there. I love her bouncy curly-at-end hair. But it is very difficult to manage, plus her sometimes don't-want-to-comb-her-hair attitude.

My husband, still a caring and understanding man. Love him to the moon and back. We have our ups and downs. Still, that's what marriage life is all about. Sharing the same burden and scratching each others' back.

Well, I'll better stop now. Got class to teach.
Till next post,
byeeee :)

HIATUS...

Assalamualaikum,

too many things to be done.

Need to straighten up all things first, then baru sambung merepek...


daaaaa...

Sometimes you just have to stop what you are doing

Assalamualaikum,

It is going to be a bit emotional writing from me today.

As a mother and a wife, I am really blessed to have a very understanding husband and two beautiful babies. Yes, they are. People will look at them, cooing and baby talking to them, especially Humaira. Fine...I don't mind.

BUT

I DO MIND if you are

1. SMOKING and try to get close to my baby.  Excuse me! Are you dumb or what? It is enough that you are jeopardizing your life. Don't put my baby in the same hole. Don't you know about passive smoker, idiot?

2. A WOMAN and my husband is holding the baby, and ME, the wife is not around. HELLO!!! Don't u feel the same if your boyfriend holding a phone and I am touching it? (not that my baby as cheap as that phone). The point is, stop messing with somebody's baby and husband whose wife is not there. You should be extra careful even if you are attracted to the baby so much. If the mother is holding the baby and you are a woman, that is a different story. Opposite sex is a big NO!

3. PURPOSELY MAKES MY BABY CRIES. Yes, baby cries a lot. But you are not the one who'll be panicking and desperately trying to stop the baby from crying. Don't you know that parents have a lot of things to do apart from that? Don't you know how to treat a baby?If you use your loud voice, your purposely sound angry voice, don't you think it is inappropriate? They'll get scared. Babies are months old and you are..?

Put yourself in the parents shoes. It is not that I am a very fussy mother. I am not to the extend, 'don't touch my baby, you are full of germs'. No, I am not. But, these simple things irritate me.

I love hearing words like my baby is beautiful and they are lovely, she is cute, Abang is adorable. Yeah...it kinda makes me a proud mama. But, I really can't tolerate with the 3 types above.

Please, if you think I am too much, wait until somebody do this to u. You'll know how it tastes. :)

P/s: Dah abis meroyan. Jom wat assignment.

Apa yang saya ada hanya...

Assalamualaikum,

Disaat kawan-kawan Like page Tiffany&co di Facebook,
Saya cuma ada harta pemberian dikala risik, tunang, nikah dan hadiah dari suami saya

Disaat kawan-kawan berjalan di luar negara,
Saya bertungkus-lumus menyiapkan assignments dan bekerja

Disaat kawan-kawan saya membeli handbag jenama mewah,
Harga beribu jua, malah ada yang saya tidak pernah dengar designernya,
Saya mengira belanja seharian, yang lebih saya letakkan untuk cahaya hati saya berdua,
Buat baju sehelai dua,

Disaat kawan-kawan saya membawa anak mereka ke bercuti,
Ke Disneyland, ke Legoland,
Saya hanya mampu membawa mereka pulang
Ke kampung halaman, bertemu nenda

Melihat kawan-kawan makan berselera
Di cafe-cafe terkemuka, merasa enaknya segala
Saya hanya boleh membeli lauk di pasar
Masak sendiri untuk keluarga

Bukan niat perlekeh teman-teman
Jauh sekali untuk mengata
Namun itu rezeki mereka
Apa yang saya ada, itu sebaiknya untuk saya
Alhamdulillah..

Saya bandingkan yang lebih mewah
Bila dibandingkan dengan yang lebih kurang
Bukankah saya yang lebih mewah?

Allah itu Maha Adil
Dia beri seadanya
Dia beri saya teman hidup
Anak-anak, suami
Walaupun saya tiada apa...

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My 2014 wish list

Assalamualaikum,

Pagi ni rasa agak ceria sikit sebab pagi2 si Iera dah sibuk nak bukak radio EraFm. Dgr la karutan JoHaRa. Tapi yang buat saya ceria bukan sebab dj2 radio tu merepek, tapi mendengar 'chant' Elephant Army untuk skuad Tok Gajah. Semangat wooooo!!

GO, TOK GAJAH! GOOOOO! Ini baru la, THIS IS PANTAI TIMUR!! and This is DARUL MAKMUR!!!!
 

Pape pun,penyokong..jangan gaduh hoccay???

Ok, so pepagi ni merepek jap ngan Ida..bukak FB cari tu cari ni... tetiba tgk gamba2 orang..pastu,bersemangat nak buat something. Hapo dio?  Ni ha, den punyo Wish List 2014.. Kenapa 2014? Bukan sekarang. Sebab sekarang rasanya x berkesempatan dah. Semput lak kalau nak buat.

1. Complete my M.ED. (In Shaa Allah.. Amin)- Kalau semuanya according to plan, dalam bulan 5 settle kut.

2. Decorate rumah baru - Perancangannya bulan 3 dah boleh masuk, tapi tu x kira CF bla,bla,bla...lagi.

3. Nak kurus... - Yang ni, xtau la bila boleh nak kurusnya. hahahaha.

pastu baru boleh..

4. Nak ambil family studio pictures - Dah kurus, Humaira dah besar sikit, Adam dah kurang lasak sikit. Baru tenang nak ambil gambar.

5. Nak jalan-jalan cuti-cuti Malaysia (dalam Malaysia je) -Ni kena habiskan M.Ed dulu.Kalau tak, tak senang duduk la. Asyik ingat assignment and Projects.

So far, ni je la wish lish yang ada. Kalau ada lagi, boleh ditambah kemudian. Hoyeah.

Lament..

Assalamualaikum...

The past 2 weeks was kind of crazy for me. Struggling to finish up all the assignments which due today (30/10/13) and handling my little brother's wedding.

Yay, that is the current family (without my lil baby-Humaira. somebody was so attached to her, and I forgot to get her).

Now, I kinda feel a bit .... i don't know how to put this. Missing? Yeah, maybe that's the right words. I miss my lil bro. Funny eh?

I won't say that we are really close but I do keep in touch, SMS, online messaging, and I called him whenever I feel I want to. I never thought of that he will be busy, so I will call him anytime I want.

Now that he is no longer alone, having a wife and all.. a piece of me feel like... lost. If I want to call him, my heart will remind me.. He has wife, won't you be disturbing him? If I want him to do this and that...he no longer can be asked like he was alone before.

I don't know. Maybe this is only a thing that happen because the wedding is still raw. it is only 2 days after the ceremony. I have not gotten used to this yet. But still... I lost a little brother and he is now  a man. :)
 

Rezeki

Assalamualaikum...

Mood nak merepek datang lagi (baca dengan nada iklan, "Tora Datang Lagi!!).. hahaha..ok2. Sebenarnya, ni sekarang kat office. Kenapa x buat kerja? Malas la jawapnya... Ihhhh, tak la. Sebenarnya baru abis Majlis Konvokesyen ke-12 KIPSAS. Bapak penat!!!! Tapi arini xleh punch out awal. Kena stay sampai kul 5, baru balik. Esok? Cuti!!!!! Yeah!

Ok..sementara nak tunggu pukul 5, meh kita mengarut.

Tengah duk layan FB tadi, tertengok gambar kawan yg duk kat Jepun, dapat peluang kerja kat London, sambung blaja kat oversea. Sedehhh kot. Aku apo yang ado? Nak jalan gi East Coast Mall kat Kuantan tu pon berkira. Yela, nak kira bawak anak lagi. Kalau bawak bukan anak sorang dah. Ni dah masuk dua. Teringat first time outing ber4. Kalau ikut rasa, memang tobat la nak kuar ngan budak2 ni selagi x besar. Dengan Adam nak berlari dalam mall, dengan adik nangis nak susu. Perghhhh!!! Sungguh mencabar. Nak gi oversea? Jangan mimpi!

Itu kalau kira nak keadaan. Kalau kira kewangan? Hahahaha... mimpi lah nak ada duit bayar tiket flight, duk hotel best-best. Tak mampu. Baik la pegi beli susu Adam, beli baju anak2-anak. Ada lebih sikit, belikan apa yang budak-budak ni nak. Kehendak papa dan mama? Kalau lebih lagi duit tu. Dengan hutang rumah loan rumah, loan kereta..Semua nak kena fikir banyak-banyak sebelum ter'over spend.

Hati ni kemain la jeles dengan kawan-kawan yang ada kemampuan macam tu. Sekali post gambar kat FB, ha!! Pakai Fareeda giteww.. Kereta dah tukar Civic, Merz.. Den?? Hahahaha.. MyVi tu lah . Merasa la lebih sikit bila pakai incik somi nyer City. Tu pon kira kete import murah je. Tak ke mampunya nak pakai lebih dari tu.

Tapi, itu rezeki orang muda, anak sikit.  Banyak yang boleh dilaburkan ke situ. Eh!! Bukan nak kata rezeki korang takat tu la. Tapi, tu korang dapat extra. Allah swt kan Maha Adil. Rezeki kami? Permata hati dua orang tu. Kena ada give and take la kan. Aku dapat tang tu lebih, korang dapat lebih tang lain.

Tapi tu la, rezki anak-anak ni memang ada Allah swt ready'kan untuk diorang. Masa Adam dulu, aku dapat tukar ke Kuantan. Walau sedikit pedih sebab perbezaan gaji, Alhamdulillah.. aku dapat bawak anak duk dengan papa dia. Rezki Humaira pulak, aku dapat naik gaji dan tetap perkhidmatan. Ha!! Sungguh, Allah swt dah tetapkan rezki anak-anak aku tu. Tak payah aku soalkan semua tu.

In Shaa Allah, kalau ada rezeki kami bercuti ke oversea, aku sambung PhD nanti. Semua tu ketetapan Allah swt.  Aminnn....

Aku ni duk mengomel nak pegi oversea la ape la. Nu, orang Syria, orang Mesir duk berperang semua tu, x bising pulak depa. Syukur aku masih dalam negara aman. Cuma xpuas ati minyak naik aje. Aku bukan dapat BRIM pon. Cukai pon kena bayar. Hahaha... 

Baiklah, mari mengundur diri. Cukuplah omelan petang ni.. Mari pulang jumpa insan tersayang.

XOXO..
Mama Adam & Humaira, bini encik Faiz

Cerita mak buyung busy

Assalamualaikum wbth,

Hoh Heh Hoh Heh... penat mak bawak perut ni. Tapi x sedar dah masuk 8 bulan 1/2. Orang duk kata perut I kecik. Takpolah...memang gitu la I ni. Dari zaman mengandungkan Adam, ni nak beranakkan adik Adam pulak. Orang duk kata kecik je perut ni, tapi si pembawakperut ni xlarat dah nak mengangkut. (adik baby dlm perut, jangan terasa lak. Duk je dlm perut sampai cukup 9 bulan tau).


Sekarang ni tinggal 2 minggu je lagi nak abiskan sem 1 kelas MA. Dengan assignment yang melambak-lambak, presentation nak cover, final exam 2 minggu lagi..memang x terkejar la yeop. Kekadang tu mengharapkan satu hari tu ada lebih dari 24 jam. Tapi jangan dilayankan rungutan manusia ni. Rasanya takkan buat jugak kalau dapat lebih masa. Lebih baik tidur je kan?

Itu part MA. Yang kat office ni, dengan panel MQA visit la, dengan marking final exam paper, dengan buat statistik, nak buat modul lagi, nak buat camp pulak, nak buat bengkel lagi... haihhhh... Pendek kata, banyak la benda nak kena buat. Tapi, masih lagi terkawal. Haha.

Tapi, risaunya...bila barang adik dlm perut ni x siap2 lagi kemas. Selalunya beg emegency ada dlm kereta start 7 bulan lagi. Ni satu ape pon x buat. Just basuh je barang2 abang Adam pakai masa baby, yang mana boleh reusable, basuh n letak dlm bakul. Hadoi la... teruk mama ni kali ni. Just jangan adik kuar mengejut dah la. Kuar la dlm cukup 36 weeks ke..bernafas sikit mama ni bila kelas MA dah setel. Hehehe...

Ok la...tetiba ngantuks... muaahahaha.. kes makan banyak sgt la ni. Jyaaaa!!!

Cikgu yang paling saya ingati

Assalam,

Wow, dah masuk 8 bulan. Sebulan lebih je tinggal. Hehe.

Hari ni nak ngomel pasal lain dr cite peknen. Nak cite pasal CIKGU. sebab ari ni Hari Guru.

Cikgu...
walaupun cikgu ni bukan la mak bapak kita (walaupun mak abah kita ada yg keje cikgu), tp selalu orang cakap, cikgu adalah ibu bapa kita yang kedua. Huhuhuuu... besar tanggungjawab tu.

Saya keje sebagai pensyarah..tapi profesyen sy ni setaraf je ngan cikgu. Mengajar ialah tugas hakiki saya. Kadang-kadang tu budak2 ada je panggil saya cikgu (walaupun dah banyak kali remind, panggil madam..hikhik).

Tapi, arini aku nak cite bukan pasal cikgu paling baik pernah ajar aku. Tapi, cikgu paling meninggalkan impak kat aku.

Mula-mula, cikgu kat skolah rendah. SKTL. Aku ni, masa skolah dulu comot. Tak comey. Maklumla, anak orang miskin. Abah dah xde. Mak lak keje, so xde orang nak make sure baju aku bersih hari2. Kalau kat lengan tu, hitam je kesan pensel ke..kesan terlanggar papan hitam ke...macam2 la. So, compare dengan kawan2 aku yang lain, aku ni macam Dayang Senandung. Tak pun macam Intan Terpilih. (korang ggogle sdri cite tu kalau xtau. aku siap tanya kwn2 lagi) Hahahaha...

Ada sorang cikgu ni. Lelaki. Dia nak setup koir punya group. Boleh x dia xtulis pon nama aku, masa budak lain duk hegeh2 duk bagi nama nak join. Aku ni pon satu,confirm2 je dia tulih nama aku. Skali  ha!! Baru aku taw nama aku xde dlm list. Tp agaknya dia kesian kat budak buruk ni, dia biarkan je. Lagipun, dah 2,3 mgu praktis. Pastu, dia jugak cikgu pancaragam. Aku ni xpernah dapat attention dia. Dia suka borak2 ngan budak2 comei je...tersisih la aku...

Tu masa dah darjah 5,6.

Masa aku gi kelas fardhu ain lagi la... Ada sorang ustazah ni. Dia pernah tegur tulisan jawi aku. Masa tu aku darjah 3 x silap. Aku mengaku la, burukkkk je tulisan aku ni. Aku tengok tulisan kawan aku ni. Tak ingat la tulisan sape. Kalau x silap, kawan aku nama Malisa, xpun Roey... Aku cakap, "Cantiknya tulisan awak. Saya punya senget je. x cantik.."
Korang tau, ustazah tu menyampuk ape? "Tulisan orang beriman memang cantik"... Haiyarkkkk!!!! Dushum..dushum... bayangkan apa perasaan budak darjah 3 dengar camtu. Terus sampai skrg, tulisan jawi aku memang hampess... and kata2 ustazah tu masih aku igt sampai sekarang.  

Ok, tu skolah rendah.

Skolah menengah?

Ada cikgu sorang ni. Dia ajar aku Akaun. Comel, petite je. Skali, kau tau, BAPAK GARANG!. pernah skali tu, aku x ingat la pasal ape. salah jawab ke, ape ke, yang pasti BUKAN sebab aku x buat kerja...dia baling aku ngan kapur. Seb baik aku dapat elak. Perghhhh!!

Ada cikgu BI plak. Time tu form 5. Cina. Dia ni, peel dia, kalau buat keje dia, kena perfect. Kena garis, kena tulis hari, haribulan. Kalau tak, dia campak buku luar kelas. Tapi, dia xpernah marah. Dia ketawa je. Bayangkan lah, kalau kelas lain yang bawah2 tu, kira ok la. Setakat kena lempar buku je kan. Kalau kelas aku yang duk 3 tingkat ni???? Ada skali tu, dia round...aku ok je. sebab BI among favorite subjects aku. Memang aku score sokmo. Hahahaha... Pastu, dalam dia round tu, dia kutip la buku kawan2 aku yang kantoi.. x siap ke, x garis ke..Dia pon teruskan aktivti dia la. Dia gi terus je kat corridor, pegang buku, and lepas...."weee!!! Flying without wings!!!" hahahahaha... nak pulak, elok2 je bawah kelas kitorang tu,ade kolam ikan. Hahahaha...ijau gitew air dia. Hahahaha

Masa form 2, ada sorang cikgu Sains ni. Lelaki. Aku serius x ingat nama dia.  Tapi, aku tak tau la kenapa..nak ketawa x baik tau, nak kata pelik..x de la sangat. Dia slalu buat unpredictable nyer action. Ada skali tu, aku nyer kelas 2C, kelas kawan aku 2B. Kitorang ni punya la tunggu..tunggu..tunggu...mana cikgu ni? Slalu cepat je.. Skali, si monitor kelas kitorg ni, Abu masuk kelas gelak2. Pastu cikgu tu masuk sengih2. Bakpe pulak... Bila time balik, kawan aku tanya, "weh, kelas korang ngan cikgu W td kan? Cikgu salah masuk kelas kitorang. Dah la waktu sebelum tu, kitorg blaja ngan dia. Siap dia dah bukak buku, mengajar lagi skali!" Berderai la gelak kitorg. Tu satu, ade skali tu, dia pakai name tag terbalik.... alaaa.....sian cikgu. Tapi, xde sorg pun yang gi tegur. Hampeh x kitorg!?

Masa Form 5, kitorang paling nakal! Cikgu Kimia kitorang la yang paling bersabar. Lab Kimia slalunya kena amik extra hours. 2.30ptg baru balik. Aku ni x suka duk kena naik bas awam (slalu panggil bas merah). Kena jalan kaki dr simpang ke rumah, adala dalam 1km. Optionnya, ponteng je Lab Kimia. Hahahaha...kekadang tu sian kat dia. ada 2,3 orang je dlm kelas. Padahal, kelas sebelum tu penuh je. Pastu, ada satu time tu, dia duk tunjuk experiment kat meja dia. Ada kawan aku yang sengal-sengal (Balaguru, Meme, Nurul.,ada lagi 2,3 org), duk usik barang atas meja cikgu tu. Drg campak sthg dlm sinki n benda tu react dengan air. Habis satu lab kena lari keluar sbb bau busuk n takut terbakar or terbau plak. Bahaya sungguh. Sian cikgu tu....dia sabar je... Tapi, benda paling aku ingat, masa tu kawan aku ni gi tanya soalan kat cikgu ni satu hari.Cikgu ni pon keluar la reading glass dia. Skali, reading glass dia tu patah tangkai. Dia ikat semula dengan masking tape (selotape kaler putih). Kawan aku lak jahat! Dia leh sengih2 sambil tengok spec cikgu tu. Dah siap tu, dia sampaikan kat kitorang. Mau tak semuanya duk pakat sengih2.

Last skali, aku nk cite pasal lecturer, masa aku dah blaja kat uni. Dia ni memang kurus. Suka pakai skirt paras lutut. Melayu, of kos. Boys memang suka sangat dia ni. Tapi, dia slalu aim aku. x suka betul aku. Ada skali tu,aku borak-borak ngan kawan aku. Guna BM la kan...pehal lak aku nak meraban speaking mat saleh ngan kawan. Skali aku x sedar, dia lalu kat belakang.  Dia siap sound kitorang, "Speak in English, both of u"... kitorang sengih2 je la. Pastu, ada lagi kes dia ngan aku ni. Ada skali tu, dia tulis something kat whiteboard. Dia explain la, ni ada 2,3 orang yang buat grave mistake in grammatical error. Dia soh satu kelas betulkan. Salah satu ayat tu aku punya. Ada satu boy ni, sgt snobbish and rude. Tapi, xleh kata pape la, sebab dia top student pon. Tapi, aku time tu baru sem 1 rasanya. That boy sedap je sound, "Why don't you ask that person to correct it herself/himself. This is rubbish." Kena lak kat ayat aku. Korang rasa ape perasaan aku bila kena point out macam tu (walaupon lecturer tu x reveal sape punya ayat). Muka aku dah merah and aku tahan je rasa nak nangis tu. Aku x suka sangat dia sampai la sekarang. Terkesan kat ati aku ni, walaupon kalau time tu niat dia baik.

Hahahaha..tu la dia. Cerite cikgu2 aku yang aku ingat. Ada x cite aku pasal cikgu baik...jaga hati students. Bagi students hadiah? Mano? Nan ado!

Aku sekarang ni mengamalkan prinsip, it doesn't matter kalau Hari Guru aku lah orang yang paling tak dapat hadiah. Aku lagi tak heran kalau students x sms aku ajak borak-borak. Aku nak ilmu yang aku sampaikan ni dapat diorg praktikkan, bukan sebab suka aku drg nak dtg kelas. Aku nk drg tau, ilmu ni perlu ketekunan dan usaha untuk dapatkannya. Maaf, aku tak perlukan students untuk bertebeng kat bilik aku melainkan minta ajarkan mereka ilmu2 yang saya boleh ajarkan.

Untuk semua guru2..SELAMAT HARI GURU...

Excited lebey plak..hehe

Assalam...

Wooh! Hari ni tetiba nak berbelog. Puncanya? Hampir 70% current work siap. Rajin x ahkakkk??? Weeeee...

Akak rini dah menyambut bulan ke 6 utk adik baby dalam pewot. Baju dah semakin sendat, baju kurung ada 2 pasang je yang reliable (kira boley masuk punggung la, kalau x sangkuttt). Maternity blouse option yg sgt sikit. Nak beli baru? Mcm x berkemampuan sgt skrg ni. Melawa dah jatuh no 16.

Baru2 ni akak sibuk mencari kain pasang kaler pink. Bakpenya? Adik baby maybe girl kan? Aritu akak ckp ngn incik suami, if she/he is a girl...papa, mama n abang long Adam skali kena paksa pakai pink masa Raya tahun ni! Muahahaha..veto power x ahkakkk? So, mencari sana-sini...jumpe la kat kedai kat Tloh ni. Nama dia Deen Maju Textiles (aishhhh, terpromote pulaks). Memula tu sibuk ah masuk Kamdar, masuk kedai ni..kedai tu.. Akak xkisah sgt kain utk akak. Kita pompuan senang je. Pilihan banyaks. Ni kain papa n Adam la. susah rupenya nak beli kain baju Melayu. Kena x beli yang siap? Papa = big size. Adam = nak sedondon ngan papa.

Punya la terik panas matahari aritu, seb baik x bawak budak shomel bombom Adam tu. kalau x, haru laaaa...

Okey...banyak lak membebel. So, dah masuk kedai tu..pusing2...x tau la nak pilih ape. Memula si salesgirl ni x membantu. Duk tercongok n tengok je kitorg leher panjang2 tengok kain. Tetiba dia tunjuk kain kat bahagian depan tu. Nama kain tu Koshibou. Cantik, berat n not so bad la harganya. Semeter x sampai RM10. Murah kannn??

Sekali, akak duk pikir2, nak la kaler mcm drg jugak! Akak pon tanya, "Dik, kain ni orang buat baju lain tak selain Baju Melayu?"
"Baju kurung pun boleh kak."

Hah, akak pon mintak tambah lagi 4 meter. Hikhik... hamik ko! Ni kaler kain tu.

Ok...pastu akak nk jahit lace ngan beads. Koya x???? Hahahaha...

Owkeh..mau pigi makan...chow cinciiiii

Current me

Assalamualaikum wbth,

Wow, never imagine I am gonna start this cycle all over again. I AM A MASTER DEGREE STUDENT AGAIN!  yeah..yeah... before this I was a quitter. I stopped UiTM, I HAD TO stop UPM. and now, enrolled in UPSI exec course. Can I make it? *Ya Allah, tetapkanlah hatiku, kuatkan semangatku untuk jihadku menuntut ilmu*

I had to grab this one. Why? Because it solves all the problems that caused me to quit before. Though, it requires a huge amount of sacrifices too.

1. It is here. At Kuantan. I don't have to travel like I did when I was in UPM. 4 hours travelling. Now, all I have to do is 15 minutes from my house to KIPSAS. I can drive there myself. No biggie.

2. I don't have to find a roomate or housemate or even a house or room to rent. My house is here. Thus, this make up for the huge amount I have to pay for this course.

3. This gonna take about 1 or 2 years only. Not more than that. *based on my calculation, early Jan I am going to grad! Weehuuu!!* Back then, UPM requires me 3 years. UiTM need 3 years.

But, I do have a wee bit problem.
1. I am going to have my baby in July. The class is on. If I am gonna miss the classes, I am gonna miss 14 hours per week. (T_T)

2. My lil brother is gonna get married. October. Again, the class is on.

But, I'll try to negotiate with the lecturers, In shaa Allah. Whether I have to do extra assignments or I don't know... let see la... My lil bro's wedding..Since I am going to be in charge, let me have a say on the date they choose. hehehe. *very dictator la ini kakak*

Ok... that's what happen to current me. Now, let's pray that I am able to stand straight and get to the finishing line.

owh..owh.. a good news to be shared, In shaa Allah. It is going to be a girl. But, who knows, if Allah decide otherwise. So far, no birdie sighted. LOL

gtg...daaaa

Of ipad and mummy's life

Assalam,

I think I have been a bad mom lately. Since I got the Ipad as the 2nd anny present, I am too engrossed to it. I would never leave that thing for a second.It got worse when I started playing The Sims online.

I am thinking of to stop playing it but it is soooooo irresistible. Adding to that, it makes my life easier when I need to do some online thinging like Online banking, FB, and Instagram. More excuses popping up after one another.

Sometimes, I left Adam to play with Papa alone and sometimes when I was too engrossed, he would play alone. Poor my baby.

But, there's a good thing also. He loves to play Ipad with me. However,he can only behave for 2 or 3 minutes the max. After that, he will lick (yup, u read it correctly), smack or even kick it with his little feet. Ayoyoyyyyoooo...

Hmmm...need to slow it down though. Too much of everything is not good.

Rajuk

Angin sepi,
Suara hati,
Hanya seorang diri,
tak ada siapa ambil peduli...

Bukan niat,
jauh sekali terlintas di hati,
mungkin betul
kerana pulut santan binasa
kerana mulut hati hamba merana.

Kelip-kelip mata
Bantal dah disorong,
kenapa mata cuba berbohong

Sudahlah wahai hati
Sudahlah wahai jari,

Tak kemana rajuk
Kalau maaf senang dipujuk..


12.32 malam
2 Mei 2012
 

Ada hikmahnya...

Assalam,

Hari ni dah lebih sebulan sy kerja di Kuantan. Setelah suffering for almost 2 years, duduk berjauhan, Allah swt bagi juga jalan supaya sy dpt duduk bekerluarga dengan hubby n Adam.

Bila sy dah bekerja kat Kuantan ni, Alhamdulillah, banyak yg baiknya sy nampak.

Relationship dengan keluarga adik emak sy, Cu, dekat semula. Kalau dulu, jarang sangat  dapat jumpa Cu. Hari Raya pun jarang sebab kitorg jarang balik ke Kuantan. Sekarang ni, asal ade free je, kitorang merayap gi rumah Cu. Kenduri Ajam pun mak tido sana and tolong Cu. Cu pun dah 2 kali dtg rumah saya kat IM.

Cu and Adam

Tukar environment tempat bekerja. Yes, I know. This is a totally new environment to me. Back then, my life was a bit 'lagho'. I couldn't care less the Muslim life that I led. What I wore, the way I talked and solat, all tunggang terbalik. Here, I am slowly adapting. Not that I wear purdah and tudung labuh. But now, I will carefully select my clothes and will be very conscious of whatever that I'm doing or going to do. Slowly, it change me for a better person. Bukannya nak membesar diri ye... tak terlintas pun. I am still me...

There are few things too but if I want to talk about it here, sampai esok x abis-abis la korg bace. Haha!

Just that, all my sacrifices are awarded. Alhamdulillah.

Yang sy pelajari dr pengalaman ni, Allah swt tetap makbulkan doa hambanya. Bezanya cepat atau lambat.
Kenapa saya tak dapat kerja di tempat lain, mungkin inilah hikmahnya...
Segalanya dah diatur untuk saya...

Pen off..bubye..

Gaduh..

Holaaa!! Arini saya nak tanya korang..

Best tak gaduh?Tak kira la ngan kawan ke, adik-beradik ke, suami ke...

Bukan gaduh tumbuk-tumbuk tu..
Bukan setakat jeling-jeling marah tu..

Ni gaduh yang kita bertekak, tinggi suara and kesudahannya dua-dua sakit ati.
Dah sakit ati..mula la membangkit itu ini.

Eiiii...sangat la x bestnya! Bila sakit ati, rasa nak jerit je! Nanti kurang ajar pulak sbb xde la intention sampai camtu kannn???

Bila sakit ati, marah sampai xleh nak tengok muka.

Marah sangat..sangat..

Kesudahannya

.......
....
...
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Berhari-hari tak bertegur sapa. Sorang kesana, sorang kesini.
Bertembung buat macam lalu sebelah stranger.


Sangat tak enak perasaan tu.
Tapi, siapa nak jatuhkan ego dulu?
Siapa nak cakap, "I am sorry?" 

Sape cakap dulu, dia kalah.... Macam Play Uncle lak..

Hurmmm....

Saya x suka!

I miss my BFFs

Assalam..

I was so..so..so..down today. Something happened and I do not have anyone to talk about it, especially when I moved to here. Yes, I do have friends. But, this is not something that I can talk with friends here.

I was at the office, look cheerful as always, (wearing RED lagitu!..haha)..but this kind of thing still lingers in my head. I do a lot of things, chit chatting with my friends, typing the students name list, and even checking the question paper (pagi2 dah buat kerja heavy??). It still doesn't go away.

My phone rang..

A call from Lynn. She asked me what about my FB status. Then, I told her my story. We talked about Rynn also. Keeping all the story updated.

Then, I called Lilee. Just to say hi and asked about her updates. Asking her baby in the tummy's condition. Giving her some advise that I used to hear when I was preggy.

I really miss having Lynn, Lilie and Rynn around. Back then, we used to hang out and share anything, ANYTHING among us. When life gets tougher, these people that keep me strong. Knowing that they are always supporting me in any condition really toughen me.

When all of us separated like this, only calls connect us. Once in a while, I'll spend my time visiting Lynn n Rynn, and Lilie will surely join us. Now Lilie at Ampang, then it will be much easier when we want to hang out again, later..

 Lynn and I had a not very long conversation but the call really made my day. I can start to think straight.

Lilie,Lynn (and baby Honey) and me

Rynn n baby Sofea

But, I still miss having them around.

BABES! JOM  GET TOGETHER!...huhuhuuuuu

Alolooo..cian baby Myvi n City

Assalam,

Semalam, genap hari ke 7 bekerja kat KIPSAS. Semalam jugak KIPSAS bagi sebijik kenangan. Kereta kecayangan caya (bajet comei ah tu!), pecah cermin belakangnya disebabkan terkena batu orang memotong rumput. Aduiiii...sekali lagi kena. Bukan first time kena ni.Aritu kena kat UiTM.

Perihalnya, sy abis tengok Readers Theater kat dewan. Abis tu, dengan mood malas (sbb hubby ajak jog lg :)), menuju la ke arah kereta Myvi yg saya parking senget pg td. Tp, senget pun dlm petak saya okeiii??? Masuk keta, start engine, pakai sunglasses (xtahan!!! *muntah ijo*), masuk gear reverse...skali... ehhhh!! apsal gelap jek( bukan sbb sunglasses okeiii??). Ehhh..nape ade kesan crack tu?? La!!!!! cermin pecah!

cermin MyVi crack kena batu

Saya pun tengok cermin yang dah retak beribu-ribu lemon tu. Tak tau nak pikir ape, call hubby. Skali, incik suami dalam toilet daaaaa... dia kata, dia call japgi. Saya lambai kat Ida (kwn sama2 report duty). Terus la mengadu... Datang pulak boss. Tak lama, dtg pulak sorang lagi lecturer (ex English lect). Tengok sana, belek sini...xde pape pon boleh buat. Boss tolong call person incharge. Then...saya pun tunggu la incik suami. Lama jugak, kebetulan Yan (colleague) nak balik, n keta dia park sebelah keta saya. Borak and borak...sempat la mengisi masa sementara incik suami sampai. Saya x berani nk drive..so, sy drive City balik umah.

Keesokkan harinya, hubby kena la anta kannn..keta dah tersadai. Nak drive, takot la..x nampak. So, kena anta dia gi punch card dulu n gtau boss dia dulu. Tengah duk tersadai dlm jammed depan skolah tu, kitorg berborak la pasal Myvi..tot tett tot tett... skali.. BUM! Tersengguk kitorang berdua! Hubby n sy pandang satu sama lain. Kena langgar rupanya kitorang ni! Tak terkata apa la dik nunnn oiiii!

kesan crack City kena hentam ngan Pajero

Sy cepat2 sms boss, sbb mesti lambat punya la ni. Dah la jammed,bleh pulak accident. Adeesss!! Parking tepi jalan, then hubby n sy kuar keta. Hubby nk diskas, sy just nak tengok keta. Akak x mau campor la dik, keje orang lelaki ni...xmo  ..x mo..

So, itu la kisahnya. 2 insiden dalam masa 24 jam. Skrg ni sy tengah cuba nk claim dgn org yg potong rumput tu. Tp ade bunyi2 yg drg tak mengaku buat. Tanya tu la, ni la... Adoi, susah hati. Mahal tu! RM400 ++.. mana akak nak cari duit dik oiii!

Tapi, saya lagi rasa terkilan. Dah nak masuk 3 tahun saya ada Myvi ni. Dah 5 kali kena mcm2.

1. Mula2 skali, saya langgar kereta orang. Tu, sy ngaku la. Mmg sy yg langgar. 
2. 2nd, lori langgar kereta saya.
3. 3rd time, kena batu jugak. Orang potong rumput kat UiTM. 
4. 4th time, Tati (cousin hubby) bwk and langgar kereta orang. Kemek boot tu. 
5. Ni, yang ke 5! Hadoi la....

Semalam dah terfikir, kenapa dengan keta ni? Macam x kena je. Saya ade hutang ngan sape2 ke? (Hutang ngan bank ada la). Mak cakap, "gi la tukar keta". Ada gak terpikir, tp kereta bukan priority lagi sekarang ni.
ish..iskkk ... sedey..sedeyyy... (T_T)