Feeling down.... T_T

Have u ever heard of negative comments?

I got one yesterday..

Feels like everything i did seems useless..

Me too... I'm the useless one...

Sad..huhuhuuu

Bila stress datang, mula la meracau....

Lately life xde la se'best' mana..Biasa la, x kan la nak happy memanjang kan?

Disebabkan hidup asyik ke hulu dan kehilir, baru sy sedar, lamanya saya x spend masa dengan budak2 umah. Nak-nak lagi dengan Yaya. Dia ade ari Rabu- Jumaat. Sy ade kat umah Isnin- Rabu n Jumaat. Hari yang boleh kitaorg duduk berborak kejap2 ialah masa ari Jumaat tu. Either kitorg gi lunch ber2 or lepak2 kat umah tggu kain siap dibasuh. Huhu... I really miss my time with all my friends. I hate my life right now. Kadang2 dengar drg berborak about things that I don't know, rasa cam pathetic giler. Rasa cam clueless. Kekadang rasa cam lost n sangat sedih bila dah xtau apa my roomie (k.Seri) nyer cite, ape Iza dah beli utk wedding dia...huhuuu...Fiza pun kekadang je kitorg berborak...

Sem ni walaupun pegi kelas tiap2 mgu, tp beban kerja kurang kot. Just 1 assignment, 1 Test and 1 Presentation je for one subject (total=2x). Tapi, tu laaaa....Bila tgh tension2 wat keje, datang la sengsara baru. My lappie plak buat hal. Sekejap2 off.. Last sem dah jadi camtu..Sem ni jadi lagi.. Argggghhh...sakitnya hati. Sy da tanya technician keje kat sini, jawapan dia "Beli baru la..." .... Gilo! mana ade duittt.... Dia suggest new lappie yang ade processor I3 (ye kut..x sure)..Ada sale CNY so, RM2400..perghh...x mampoooo hehehe...So, bertabah la sy dengan lappie kesayangan ni...Sebab lappie ni jugak pencetus krisis..me n...

Lately ni jugak sy rasa sy da buat salah dengan seseorg. Sy xde rasa ape sy buat tu salah besar(kadang2 rasa x salah pon) which I think that person doesnt have to react like that. N what makes it worse, dah terbabit dengan org lain skali. But what that person did actually scratches my heart. I laugh at the things happened but I couldnt help to think I'm so hated by that person until that person reacted like that. Maybe I am.

Rasa macam sgt benci dengan diri sendiri yang kena face all these troubles... Terasa macam nakkkkkkk sangat2...nak sangatttttt quit MA. Rasa xde hati nak buat kerja2 yang menyakitkan hati camni..Rasa cam nak quit and change profession sbb sumer tu la punca why i end up prssuring myself and doing all these troublesome works.

Tapi, tahan je la kot...hmmmmmm....