Please God, let me have that courage

Salam,

My first dugaan after engage has arrived. Though it is not that badddd... but I do feel sad about it.

Faiz got a new offer from JBA as an engineer. I really feel happy for him. Really! I know he has worked hard for his job. I want him to get a better job, not because the current job is not good, but he really deserve better. I know he deserved it. He really worked hard for his current job but it does not compliment what he did. He worked till late at night, OT everyday, went to the office on weekends, on standby mode from 1st until 15th every month.

Really, I am happy for him getting the offer.

But...................

He will be transferred to some other places in Pahang. Most probably Kuantan...

Erkk......

I am working here, UiTM Jengka... which take 1 1/2 hour to reach Kuantan. Weekends, I have classes at UPM. The only times I can see him is on Sunday.

WHATTTT?? Sunday ONLY?

I need to commute from Jengka to Kuantan to Serdang...

Leave Faiz alone, away from him...

for the next 3 years...

I coudn't bear to feel this feeling. It eats me from inside.

I do have friends to support me. Suzai, Kak Seri always give me the support that i need. They try to give me love n support which i needed the most.

I couldnt make myslf let Faiz know bout this. I want him to make his decision not to be influenced by me. Because I know he loves me so much, that he might even decline the offer because of his consideration of me.

I dont want that.. I want his decision because he make the decision. Not because of me....

I just need to pull myself together.. be strong..and face everything.

Allah, I need you to give me that courage.

Let me be strong

Let me face this without fail...

Amin...